This week it really feels like Summer is coming to an end….I know we’ve been pretty lucky in the UK this year, with hot weather that lasted for weeks instead of just a few days as it normally does (I swear last year I only got my legs out in London a handful of times!) but it doesn’t stop me from feeling sad when the grey skies creep back in! It’s got me dreaming of warmer climates, blue skies and sand dunes, so I thought I’d share these pics as a throwback to my trip to Gran Canaria earlier this year! I mean, there’s still time for me to go away somewhere again this summer, so here’s hoping it’s not too long before I’m back in the sun and I can whip out my swimwear collection again!
I don’t know if everyone else gets this, but I’ll admit I find it hard looking back at pictures of me in swimwear. It always seems that no matter how good I feel at the time, or how healthy I’ve been in the lead up to going away…when I look back at the pictures I’m never happy with how my body looks. We all have our body hangups and while there are some that only bother me from time to time (worrying about whether I need a thigh gap, feeling self conscious of my arms in a sleeveless top…) I always, always come back to worrying about my stomach. It’s stupid, I know but it’s just one of those things I can’t seem to shake and as much as I love bikini season (I have an excessively big bikini collection…) it’s always a bit clouded by the fact that it’s the one time of the year I’ll get my stomach out on show (no crop tops for me, thanks). This year, I’m in that funny new-relationship time where on one hand you feel super happy in your skin, but on the other you stop making an effort and all you really want to do is stay in bed with that person and eat as much UberEats takeout as you can get your hands on! It seems to me like it’s an equally good and bad time for my bikini body – I might look a bit less skinny…but I feel more confident.
“How to get a bikini body – 1. Wear a bikini 2. Go to the beach.”
I figure the best thing to do is live by this mantra, ditch the hangups and remember the truth – every body is a bikini body as long as we can learn to feel comfortable and happy with ourselves! I’ll admit I’m not the best when it comes to body confidence – sure, I don’t worry about it too much but I will always be a little bit in awe of those girls who can just look at ease with themselves no matter what shape or size, and especially those who can make bold statements like “She’s got a great body, but I’d still choose mine”. I’ve still got a way to go before I can feel like that, but on the day these pics were taken I was getting there – I only had about 15 minutes at these sand dunes to shoot pictures so I ran out into the sand and danced about, not caring what the tourists there might think. I think the insanely surreal view of the dunes stretching into the sea might have had something to do with it, but I just felt so free and giddy with the world that I didn’t stop to think about what I was doing/how I was looking. It’s a beautiful memory, so much so that now when I look at these photos and my brain automatically jumps straight to criticising my lack of thigh gap or untoned stomach, I have the power to shut it up and just remember how I felt in the moments these pictures were taken instead….and that will always make them look good to me!
Shop the Look
Kaftan – Swimwear 365*
Bikini – Jane Norman*
Sunglasses – Rayban via Sunglasses Shop*